I am getting really frustrated and unmotivated because of the quality of what I make.
Everything i make is bad, i have never made anything that i think looks good or satisfied with. And i mean absolutely nothing, no 3d art, 2d art, no written work, absolutely nothing.
I still work and practice every day. I read, learn, study, practice and test ideas but still nothing i make is good. Now don't get me wrong, i am improving but with my pace i think i might make something good and happy within 5 or more years. That's 5 years of everyday frustration and unhappiness.
Now i know a lot of people think that you should enjoy the process and not care about the end result and improvement will come with time.
My problem with that is that i can't enjoy the process knowing that all the effort and time put in will result in something ugly. I don't make art to make things ugly. I don't want to be spending hundreds of hours on projects for years making ugly things in the hope that one day i will make something that will look good.
It's difficult for me to enjoy making art and try to express my ideas when the expression will be unintelligible in the end.
Sometimes i wish i was ignorant about how terrible my art is.
But alas, i keep practicing and be unhappy.
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Could you show us something you did. And tell us how much time you invested. Maybe you have wrong expectations how long you have to work on an asset.
Its key to have a good understanding where your skill level is and choose the right goals. Use good references.
Also, work I think is hilariously bad that I'm too embarassed to even show on an artist forum like this has earned me thousands of dollars. So, yeah. The selfs opinion of its own work isn't super important.
edit : looked at your portfolio. The armor is particularly nice. The other stuff maybe can draw some criticisms but the armor is just straight badass.
Also Istebrak's channel is for 2D work, but it's helpful to see how she pushes things like silhouette, composition, material and lighting in her paintovers: https://www.youtube.com/c/Istebrak/playlists
the joan of arc was my first character, it took me exactly 52 days.
i made the mushroom knight as an experiment to see what I can make under a week, I made that in 5 days.
i also sold some terrible art, what's odd is that its the worst art I ever made and its the only art I made money from.
and I do try to practice as much as I can.
Another thing I struggled with (and still do) is the "OK Plateau". But ever since I understand what it is, I make an active effort to push past that point.