as shit as it sounds now. drop either your job or your hobby, neither it worth destroying your body for. the strain you put onto your body will put you out of either, the hobby or the job eventually. take a chill pill, do something else.
I think Tim nailed it. Just isn't time. It's not any individual persons fault. Not like I am saying recruiters are assholes. But it's a symptom that gets passed down from the highest levels. Too much disconnection between the people making decisions and the people doing the actual work. So you get unrealistic schedules…