Kudos to you for reaching out. But weird to place some arbitrary restrictions on things. At this point I think you should present yourself with a bit more “hunger” and a bit less stand-off-ish distancing, don’t discount yourself so readily! It could help to emulate the work style as represented in a post like this…
i can't make anything more complex than a low poly stylized tree but it's at least something. i need to train myself. i watched a basic tools and modifiers crash course and the first thing i created was this which took me half an hour. 1: i have a barely gta v capable laptop which works with blender eevee without crashes,…