Whoa. Had to check site logs to see what this was. I dislike when people edit out posts, but reading that one, I get why you blanked it. Please, @timv do talk with a professional mental health provider, it really does help. People don't talk about reaching out for professional help but I've done it, as have many, it's a…
I am also not joking; Talk to someone in real life. I don't understand what this is all about, but I can guarantee that slinging insults and passing judgement on strangers is not going to help.